The Birthday Ambush

The Birthday Ambush Yesterday, when I first got to work at O’Reilly’s, I could tell something was up. Miranda and John were laughing, giggling, and cutting up. I watched them like a hawk, not taking my eyes off of them. They both tried to scare me—sneaking up behind me and shouting “Happy Birthday!” really loud, with Miranda filming it. I still jumped—loud noises startle me—but I was ready. Even in that chaotic moment, I felt safe, playful, and connected. Playful bonding Playful interactions with people I trust can be both exhilarating and grounding. I don’t have to suppress my startle response to enjoy connection. Embracing joy safely Humor, playful banter, and safe surprises can help release stress and strengthen relationships. I can lean into these moments as part of my self-regulation.

Through the Spectrum

Through the Spectrum

The night began calm, steady — just the hum of the lights above, the familiar beep of the scanner, shelves stacked neatly in their rows. I felt present, grounded, breathing slow and even.

But the calm thinned. Voices stacked too quickly, questions overlapping. The scanner’s tone shifted from background to intrusion, each sound sharper than the last. My chest buzzed, restless, like the air itself had turned unstable.

Soon the room pressed in on me — the scrape of boxes, the hum of the fluorescents, the smell of oil and cardboard swelling too thick. My breath shortened, movements stiff, every nerve pulled taut.

And then came the collapse. Words slipped from reach, sound folded into static, my body heavy as stone. The world dulled to black and stillness — shutdown pulling me under, quiet but absolute.

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