Life udate August 2025

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🌿 Life Update – August 2025 🌿

Posted on August 2, 2025

Hey friends,

It’s been a wild, emotional, and reflective few weeks. I’ve had a lot on my plate—between work stress, sensory overload, and trying to balance my mental health meds, things haven’t always been easy.

There’s been some good, though. I’ve been leaning into what grounds me: journaling, cuddling Buc-ee, letting myself stim freely, and remembering that progress isn’t always linear. I even earned a couple of emotional bravery badges—because surviving hard days is its own kind of victory.

I’ve also had some intense physical symptoms show up—like nerve tension in my neck and arm, and weird sensations in my head—but I’m tracking them, advocating for myself, and working with my care team.

Most of all, I’m proud of myself for not shutting down. For letting myself feel things. For reaching out. For being real.

If you’re also going through it right now, I see you. You’re not alone. 💜

Shared with love and respect for the neurodivergent and mental health community.

If you want to reach out or share your own updates, feel free to connect via the contact form. 💌

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